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  • 别再为他流泪

    Well this song has some particular meaning to me, telling me what I should be doing. Although its point of view is from a female’s perspective, it does tell me what I should do. I would be writing my english version of the song and also my feeling inter-mixed in it.

    I have been walking along for quite sometime now, (3 weeks in fact) and I should be tired of this already. And I should not make myself suffer because of her choice. And leaving her behind is something I must do, and do it clearly and with more resolve. (But still it is hard and not easy to do.)

    I know that if I step back further, I would see the truth, the truth of her choice. And I should believe that my world would not collapse because she has left me, (but I feel that it has but I know that I must just pick myself up from the rubble) and turn round the corner and I would “fly” again.

    So I should not cry for her anymore, and not let her shadow and memories control my emotions. And even if I have a little ignorance and a little regret, don’t be embarrassed about it.

    She is not worth my tears, and I should leave all the regrets that I have behind. I previously was lost and was still blindly trying to chase her back. But now I must live for myself.

    Every relationship is precious, and now all I can do is to remember her good and place it in my heart. And remember that previously there was someone that can move my emotions so much.

    And I should smile more, to brighten up the dark screen in my life. And hopefully when I think back in the future, I would still feel something, but would be able to just brush it off.

    And at the end of the day, I should not be lost anymore, not cry for her cause she is not worth it. And not blindly chase the lost cause. And don’t care who she is anymore.

    你走了太久一定很累
    他错了不该你来面对
    离开他就好就算了心情很干脆

    他其实没有那么绝对
    远一点你就看出真伪
    离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
    转个弯你还能飞

    就别再为他流泪
    别再让他操控你的伤悲
    就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
    也不要太狼狈

    他不值得你的泪
    把那遗憾留在大雨的街
    你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
    以后为自己醉

    每段感情都非常珍贵
    他的好你就放在心扉
    记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

    你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
    什么梦都不比你的美
    多少年以后想起他还有些体会
    那些你已无所谓

    就别再为他流泪
    别再让他操控你的伤悲
    就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
    也不要太狼狈

    他不值得你的泪
    把那遗憾留在大雨的街
    你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
    以后为自己醉

    就别再为他流泪
    别再让他操控你的伤悲
    就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
    也不要太狼狈

    他不值得你的泪
    把那遗憾留在大雨的街
    你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
    以后管他是谁

  • Science Lesson

    Well today went to the science centre as part of my STEC 207 class and I got the opportunity to try to map the DNA from the cheek cells.

    I got to do most of the steps other than the ones that need special machines. Next week would be going back to continue with the lab.

  • New Theme

    Well It been a year since I last posted on this place. Maybe I’ll try to post more. Well a new theme is up.

  • End of SE

    Well, yesterday 2359 was the end of SE. The modules that has made the whole SIS year 2 cohort have countless night not getting enough sleep, specifically during the last 3 days. At least it is now over. Had a good learning experience, but I’m not expecting much of a good grade from this as I crashed my IA & test quite a bit.

    This late (or super early) post is because I just got back. Went out with some of my PMSB group members & the others that I had hanged out with over the past few days doing SE. Always thought that SMUX was the only place where I would get stirred shit about. But then, now I know is that if a group of people knows you & know that you are okie with anything, you would just get stirred. Quite a nice outing we all had after the 2359 submission of all our SE project. Went to “The ONE” ktv at orchard there. Quite a good group of singer all of them are. It been quite sometime since I went to ktv to sing. Sang 2 songs.

    Well it’s now time to start to mug for the upcoming exams. 2 papers. Let’s get it over and done with.

  • New Post

    It’s been a long time since I posted. In fact 16 days. Been going for kayaking every weekend except for last week cause have to rush SE project. Well not been sleeping much this past week. In fact for last Monday & yesterday, had to take taxi home.

    Last week was because of PMSB, but at least that is settled. Now is SE that is till this Wednesday. Plus tomorrow/today have a presentation in the afternoon. Hope nothing goes wrong.

    And something been bugging me for the past week. At least been on my mind. Cause WB say got something to tell me after the exam. Cause might affect me. Well hope to know it soon. That’s another reason for hoping to end soon. Another reason is the list of activities that I got/might have.

    Plans for after the exam:
    1) 2 DEC –  Standard Chartered Marathon (going for the 42.162km) let’s hope that I’ll survive.
    2) 3&4 DEC – Desaru (might be going, pending places + surviving above.)
    3) 7&8 + 11&12 DEC – Ad Jam Safety IC for Dry run & Actual (Hope everything goes well & nothing major happens)
    4) 14-18 DEC – Stong (My firs trek, hope I would like it.)
    5) SIE + pre/post reverse ECS (SIE is just need to register, reverse ECS have to see what JJ wants.)

     Well looking at the list of events that I have think I would not have much time to rest.

    Well that it. Hope everything will end soon & well.

  • The week since last Friday

    Friday, 19 October 2007, 4:57 pm
    Location: SMU, Library, Level 4, SMUX Corner

    Well, It is been a week since my last post. Been busy with school & all my other stuff. And also just too tired to post anything.
    Well let’s do something boring, going through the stuff I did for the week.

    Last Friday, think I just stayed home to rest after my 2 Star. So nothing much that day.
    Saturday morning had an Ad Jam Prog Meeting, lunched with John, met Marilyn & her friend at SIS opposite Kopitiam.
    After that I went home to get the car to go the gathering that Jac organised. Fetched John, SY & WB to the place.
    Quite confused with the area, went round in circles for like 4 times.

    The gathering was quite good, just sitting around eating & talking about the internal elections results & everything else. That day also celebrated MW’s BDay.

  • Round Ubin

    Sunday, 4 November 2007, 12:22 pm
    Location: Home, Jurong East

    Today was my first time going round ubin on a kayak. (Unless you count the time I went OBS, HAHA) Well feeling quite tired now. Did it within 4 hrs. Started at 10:30 am, back at Changi at 2:30 pm, with 30 minutes lunch break. Was quite a good experience overall. Didn’t push myself that hard, more like keeping a constant pace so that at least still can survive the whole trip.

    Interesting what you can see on the other side of the Ubin. Think I would consider getting a camera to take photos to keep some moments. Well don’t really know how to discruibe it, must see for yourself.

    Well saw a freshie who has 4 star (sea) when we beached up. She was helping someone prastice Hand Roll. Think they had something like a (multi star) gathering. haha.

    Well back to SE, PMSB and BP. The “normal” school life again.

    That’s it then. END : 12:39 pm

  • Last Sat & Sunday

    Tuesday, 23 October 2007, 2:04 am
    Location: Home, Jurong East

    Well have not been updating, wrote a post half way but didn’t know what to write so, just left it as that.

    Well for a quick update, more about what happen for me last Saturday & Sunday.

    Saturday morning was the info session for Ad Jam 2007. A few JCs sent reps for the session. Had to do a part of the briefing, think I did ok, just that maybe could have slowed down a little. Happens to me all the time when I don’t have a script for my presentation, I would just pick up speed & rush to finish what I have to say.

    Then went for my SE pair programming. Was ok, just that didn’t get much planned work done. Ended fixing compilation errors. But at least got something cleared away. Then next was PMSB, quite an amount of time spent on this. But it was quite interesting to see that you can model a business process & try to simulate the whole process through a model. Change part of the model & simulate again & see the results. COOL.

    After that went to meet Cai & Jason. Cai brought someone along. We all went to a HQ gathering. Saw quite a lot of people from my army life there. Was a good time catching up with them, getting to know what they have been doing after leaving army. Well hope we all can get to gather more regularly.

    Then it’s back home.

    On Sunday, sleep in, but then still have to wake up cause going to Changi for a recce. Met ZM & AS at Changi at about 2 pm. Then we went for our recce. Don’t think I would like to say much. Cause it suppose to be a secret. HAHA

    Well that’s it. Would try to update this more regularly & maybe less about my life & more about my thoughts.

    END : 2:20 am

  • 2 Star Finally, Next 3 Star

    Friday, 12 October 2007, 3:15 am
    Location: Jurong East, Home

    Just finished my MS homework that I have to submit today. Don’t think I would need to go school to do that as I did it in soft copy. Still left BP not yet started, dateline is Sunday. Hope I can get it done.

    Did not post on Wednesday cause I was tired from the 2 Star course plus also needed the rest for the third & last day. For Wednesday, we went for an expedition down to Loyang beach, which was behind downtown east. Started late, and so causing us to have to kayak against the current. So the journey there was quite long, plus every-time we raft up, we started to drift back the direction that we came from. Had lunch at the beach. After lunch, we learned about kayak to swimmer rescue & then Eskimo bow rescue. For the Eskimo bow rescue, it was quite an experience, as it is something quite new to me. Didn’t did that well enough to pass it on that day. As we were about to go back, there was a storm over Pulau Ubin, which could have turned to us. So we were quite lucky to make it back without the storm turning towards us. When we reached Changi, we were suppose to form 1 line beside our instructor, but failing to do that, we were asked to capsize & swim to shore.

    Then on the last day, which was yesterday, we practiced the Eskimo bow rescue again, then we were tested & all cleared the test. Then it was revision of our side movement stokes or draw. Then next was the low & high recovery. Was quite interesting to know that using the recovery techniques you could prevent yourself from capsizing. Then next was low brace turn &Â stern rudder. What was the most fun & difficult part was having to let your kayak fill up with water to the combing then move around, really lets you practice your recoveries. Then we break for lunch.

    When we got back, we were ask to do an all in. (all to capsize then recover) Quite fun, but not when you have to do it a few times. Next we had some games, we had to paddle using just our hands and also try to catch our assistant instructor, did not manage to catch him. Next we had to repeat this with our kayaks submerged. This time we managed to catch him. But after all this playing around, I felt that I became better at controlling the kayak’s side to side row movement. Didn’t have to do that much recovery when I was going back to the shore. Next we were shown some of the 3 Star skills that we might get to learn, if we go for 3 star. Well then we washed the kayaks, bath, review session & getting our certs. Glad to say that all of us passed.

    After all this experience for 2 star, now really interested to go for 3 star, but most likely have to plan it so that it spreads over 4 weeks, as we were told that it is quite a demanding course, plus you would need time to practise the skills that you have learned. Will go just a matter of time, and who to go with.

    Now really interested to go further with my personal skills in kayaking. 3 star by summer?? Maybe, Just do it.

    Â Well thats it. END : 3:44 am

  • The start of my 2 Star course

    Wednesday, 10 October 2007, 12:03 am
    Location: Jurong East, Home

    Well going to make this short. Yesterday was the start of my kayaking 2 Star course. Went through the skills & theroy that I learn during my 1 Star with some corrections to it.
    Plus we were expected to take care of ourselves + if possible take care of others. So it’s more about refining your current skill sets & improving it to help others also.

    Saw the biking trip people when they were waiting for their turn to go on to the ferry. Quite happy to see them. Talked to them for a while them went to have my breakfast with John.
    The instructor showed us a 4 Star course video. Really making me want to go for 3 Star then go for 4 Star. Well will see what would happen as times goes by then.

    Had dinner with John after the course. Then both of us waited for the biking trip people to get back. Then went home after that with WB (who went for the biking trip).

    Well I know today’s post quite boring. But really tired now & tomorrow going to have expedition for my course. So going to sleep now.

    Thats it then. END : 12:10 am