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  • The day I got a whole Star & The day of my final FT lesson

    Monday, 8 October 2007, 10:53 pm
    Location: Jurong East, Home

    From the title of this post, most would be able to guess that I got my Kayaking 1 Star. The experience for the second day, was quite different from the first. Started with practising what we learn the first day & learning the classic draw. Then on to learning about the rescue. Was quite an interesting experience. Got to know two other people because of doing the rescue. 1 is from SIM ODAC, the other is a police regular. Never knew that capsizing can be so interesting cause 1 of them kept on wanting to cap. ha-ha. Well in the end did get my 1 star, so now it is on to the next level, Kayaking 2 Star.

    Yesterday was also the day that I had to hand in my individual assignment for my Software Engineering module. Had to create a online t-shirt shop for this assignment. Did not really complete all the requirements so not quite happy with myself over this. Should have planned my time better. Well what has happened has happened.

    Today I had my “fine” dining lesson at Raffles Town Club. The food was ok. Although I find that my prof did not look as if he was assessing us. Maybe that was his plan. Well was a good lunch, more like a meal with all the other SIS people, as most of my class who signed up for today is from SIS. Went back to school for SE meeting after that. Wanted to go JB to meet the trekking people for dinner, but time forbids so have to give up that idea.

    Well someone told me something today via MSN, but then can not say what it is. But still understand why the person was telling me this. So sorry to have cause you problems on your side. Would do what I believe is right, but do remind me from time to time.

    Tomorrow would be 2 Star course, will last for 3 days. Well hope that I can pass. Otherwise would be quite wasted.

    Think thats it. END : 11:07 pm

  • The day I got “Half” a Star

    Saturday, 6 October 2007, 11:27 pm
    Location: Jurong East, Home

    Today was(is) the first day of my Kayaking 1 Star course. Interesting lessons, but then still quite bored, cause I have heard this lesson for a few times already. Like the names of the parts of a boat / Kayak, cause had to learn it for Advance Open Water Dive course. Did not knew that a Kayak is classified under a canoe, something new to me, always thought that they were different. Learnt the skills that was needed. More of a revision for me, but at least this time is a proper lesson on it.

    Realised that I have been doing quite a few things wrong but you learn everyday. Found that the kayak called Bandit is quite or in fact super maneuverable. Think I will fall in love with it. Maybe till I try dancer. Or maybe I will fall in love with single kayak in general. 🙂

    Not much for the first day of kayaking, although would have wished to go out further. But then it is after all a sort of basic course for everyone.

    Went to get contacts lens for myself cause used up all of them already. Although it took me like more than a year to use up my 6 months supply of monthly contacts. Decided to switch to daily. Think it would be more cost efficient, based on the way I wear contacts. Had my eyes check again, cause the last check was before I ORD. And something good was told to me, both my eyes the degrees dropped by 100. Or maybe its just that they added 100 more. Well you will never know.

    Went to the kayaking team dinner, nothing much to talk about it, except that there was dinner. Although WB warned me about something someone might ask, cause during the expedition that they had today, “SHIT” was stirred again. So since the thing was about me, it was eventually directed to me. But when that person asked, did not answer, cause I feel that the person need not know. Plus I have somewhat placed it as TOP SECRET. So it is best that the person do not know. :p

    WB also told me another thing, so to whoever is reading this, (if that person comes back at all to read), Please do not freak out. Cause I am just putting my feeling into words, without directly naming anyone, although those involved would know what is happening. If you feel that something needs to be taken down, you can either tell me or have someone inform me. I am okie with it.

    Drove today, so sent the same 3 person back. Went by Holland Village’s Cold Storage as they wanted to buy something for the trek that they would be going tomorrow. Well talked to the person a little. Really little. Don’t know why got so few words, when I can crap with others, like ZM & SY & (someone whom I talked on the phone for 4 hours, who I can’t name as the person say so). So maybe it is the comfort level, well I don’t know.

    Anyway hope they have fun on the trek. Can’t go cause got 1 Star day 2. But anyway kayaking have priority, no matter what cause promised JJ that I would get my 2 star by week 8 end. Would really have wanted to go, but to think about it, go also no point.

    Well think that is about it. Have to go rush my SE Individual project.

    So thats it. END : 12:24 am (the next day)

  • More point to add to last post

    Friday, 5 October 2007, 10:44 pm
    Location: Jurong East, Home

    When some of you (who ever you are) read the last post, you might feel that I doing like a cost benefit analysis on what is happening with my life. Well maybe you can say that just by reading & only reading the last post. So I am here to add more points to it.

    What I feel with relation to what I have type is that if I were to emo too long, it would affect my work & the rest of my life, cause I will be spending time think about it. This effect would cause me not to perform well for the task that has been given to me. And so affect the view of people about me. (Although I don’t think I really care) But this view would be shared to others, maybe even her. So in a way damage my “image” (if I have one 🙂 ).

    So therefore what I felt I should do is to actually work hard on my personal commitment that I have promised myself to. Perform & do it well. And so make it reflect who I truly am. (Like Leadership by example). And maybe Just maybe, she would notice what I have done.

    Â So Show who you truly are not by saying, But by your actions that you do in your everyday Life. LIVE to be your Best.

    So thats it. END : 10:55 pm

  • The day I decided what to do

    Friday, 5 October 2007, 6:41 pm
    Location: SMU, SIS, Level 3, GSR 3.2

    Today had my MS mid term, don’t think I did well in it. Cause got a few questions that I did not answer like the question about conditional probability. But the prof did expect that we all not to finish the paper & told us that she would mod the grades so how.

    Well somewhat have a decision over something after yesterday night of thinking & also with some decision making using MS.
    More or less decided that I would not spend time thinking about relationship anymore. Cause in terms of returns, currently it is hard to get. So rather than let it cause me to emo & not do my work well, I should just let it flow naturally and not think about it.

    Got quite a few things that I need to get done. Like the Ad Jam 2007 Safety Admin Instruction, and also the kayaking expedtion stuff. Can not let ZM who trust that I can handle the safety IC task down. If not I would not be doing the right thing. For the kayaking expedtion, been think about the training program for it. As I do feel that we really need to start training. This is also the same concern expressed by AIKS & WB. Since I do not have any appointment now, I feel I would be able to take up the role of training IC & Safety (just need to bring over what I learn from Ad Jam).

    As for the portal for the expedtion, I have 3 sample up already. Just need to see which 1 is easier to use. So that we can start using it.

    And there is also school work. Been not doing much for IS mods, so really need to do something about it. Do not want my grades to drop this term, want it to improve. So that I have the motivtion to carry on to study well.

    So there so much things for me to do. So let’s just do what I have and let the rest just fall into place.

    Thats it then. END : 7:00 pm

  • The day that I was suppose to study for MS

    Thursday, 4 October 2007, 7:29 pm
    Location: SMU, Library, Level 4, SMUX Corner

    Today was suppose to study for MS, but till now, have not gone past Chapter 2.
    Was in school since 9:30 am, crashed for like half an hour after having my breakfast.
    Still feeling tired, want to close my eyes while writing this.

    Saw her come to the library at around 10:30pm. Did not say or wave hi. Just ignoring her I suppose. (Attitude)
    Although I did somewhat stared at her, think that cause her to changed the seat that she wanted. Did not like face me when she sat down.

    Well lunch was with WB, told him about my blog & all, show him when we got back. No comments from him.

    Still did not do much studying. Or maybe I’m just slow.

    Went for SE pair programming session at 3:30pm, did much work there, but there are still issues that we as a team need to settle. Like the Data Set & how we going to input it into the Database & also how the flow of the system going to be. Etc…..

    Concluded the meeting at 6:00 pm, an hour earlier than expected. So that was good. Went back to the library. & Saw that she had gone off, for class I heard. Marketing I suppose.

    Went for dinner with WB & K. K asked about the post of TTTX, which was quite an old post from WB & me point of view. But we talked about it. K got to know about L’s new target so was quite surprised.

    Don’t know if that post could apply to my issue. But I don’t think can. Cause a person’s point of view will always be different when they are personally involved.

    Find that my life is simpler when I did not think about these issues, so good just being a loner, cause you just take care & think about yourself & that is it. But I think it about the friends you make along the way also. Just need to open up & let people know you. Although it is also a give & take process, cause if a person do not want to know you, you also can not force them.

    I find that all the close friends that I have are people that I worked with for quite sometime, with lots of contact. Like my SMUX camp program committee, YAH group and TB people. Cause they all got to see how I work & my dumb attitude to things that do not go my way. If you are considered my friend, what you ask if I can get it done, I will do it.

    Typed this to someone on MSN:
    maybe when i like someone its more about me wanting to get to know that person + letting that person know more about me.

    I am really interested to know her better, but I think the “normal” (what is the norm anyway)Â way of knowing people is not my way. I must really work with that person. So that the person would know me too. Not the sort that can make friends like on the streets. They will just become hi bye friends.

    Would kill to be on the same committee or project group with her, then can get to know her.

    Think I crap enough for today. Still my MS to settle, then my SE individual project.

    So thats it. END : 8:32 pm

  • The day I ran alone near school

    Wednesday, 3 October 2007, 9:10 pm
    Location: SMU, Library, Level 4, SMUX Corner

    Just finished dinner at Fisherman’s Wharf at 8 pm. The people who went were, WB, John, Jac, XW & me. All but Jac went there with bags & all, but then decided that to go back to the library as it was still quite early. All but WB went back. As usual, the library looks full for this time, but must be due to the mid terms this week. Everyone is mugging for their tests this week. Maybe the reason I went back was because of her, but this reminds me about what I thought about when I was running today.

    Earlier today, I went to run alone, as WB did not bring his running gear. But this gave me time to think about what WY said to me yesterday. The main thing was “Why do I like her?”. Well truthfully, can’t think of any good reasons. Cause every reason that I can think of, in most cases, can be found in the girls around me. So I think to truly know whether you like someone, it is more about each person’s beliefs about things. If your belief on things matches, there would be a chance that you would be together. Even if it differs, as long you are able to talk it out, you would be able to bring things forward. So I would have to say that it goes back to communication.

    For the friends that I have gotten close to, you all might see me as someone who is crappy & maybe talk too much. But for those who are new to me, or not as close, you would know me as someone who is silent & don’t talk much.
    Well the reasons that I have always say are these few, Don’t know what to talk about, Not comfortable talking, Want alone time with the person.
    But like what others have tell me, Why don’t you have anything to talk to the person about, Is it because you don’t know the person well? Why are you not comfortable talking? Why the fear? Scared that you would embarrass yourself?

    Well I don’t know, about scared of being embarrass is quite true. There is always that fear specifically if it is in front of people I am fond about. But why have that fear. Just be yourself like you have been in front of your close friends. Never fear about embarrassing yourself in front of her. Cause I think if you do, then you are not letting her know the true you. Cause what you are showing her is just a mask. Nothing more than that. Cause your true self is the self that you are in front of your closest friends.

    Learn to open up, show your true self in front of everyone. Never stop trying to open up. Cause if you do close up, then people would never have the chance to know you.

    Â Well thats it. END : 10:08 pm

  • The day after the “day”

    Today was the first day back to school after the elections, was not in the library much today, cause had SE lesson & meeting. Quite normal for today, cause it has been like that for the last few week.

    Well think I took charged a little for my SE group, cause I really feel that we need to get thing to start working, in terms of using the Subversion server. So that we would be able to work remotely & separated. Cause it is taking too much time meeting & discussing about what to do. And I do feel our progress is quite slow. Need to push them harder, cause I really would like to score for this. Cause if I was not studying, I would be doing this sort of work for a living, so must score for this.

    Â Today went to SMUX table, & well, it looked quite normal, like always for a Tuesday. Nothing much to say.

    While I was doing my homework, WY decided to chat with me. Giving me advice for quite a few things. Like the way I would react to people’s comments, taking it really personal & looking angry. Well that quite true, cause I really show my feelings on my face quite easily, from what WY say, that’s not good.

    Then he also commented on relationship issue with me, Well have to think about this from what he tells me. Do I really want to be with her or do I just want a GF?
    Well that’s the question for the month then.

    Ha-ha. Looks like this is progressing well, second update for the month. Lets see how long this would last. 🙂

  • SMUX Elections

    Its been a long time, well almost 11 months that I have not blog. Decided that I should start blogging again & see how its goes.

    Well for those who were there, yesterday (1 Oct 2007) was SMUX Elections. Firstly I would, well congratulate all those who got elected into Crew. It is going to be tough for all of you for the next 1 year plus, but I think those elected would be able to do a good job & make the toughest of decisions if they need to.

    To those that didn’t get in (that includes me), well do remember why you decided to run for Crew. Stay around & make a difference. There is still a lot of things that can be done by us. I believe the Crew would need all our help with whatever plans they have. So be there & do it.

    Before I end this, I would like to thanks the people who had nominated me & also encouraged me to run. Like I said, I would like to make a difference for SMUX, and I know that even if I am not in Crew, I can still contribute in whatever I can help in. So remember just ask & I will be there.

  • Outing with Sec Sch Buddies

    Well the main thing that I did today(or yesterday) was to go out with my sec sch buddies, JH, Ron & Aly. But before I met up with them, I went to school for a meeting with my YAH team mates (not all of them were there, just two others). Basically, this was a feedback session for our proposal of an event that we intent to hold in school. Going to have another meeting at 4 pm tomorrow to touch up on the proposal.

    After this meeting, I went back to clementi to have my lunch. I went to a place called “BOTAK JONES“. The food there is good and the serving is quite big. So it is worth the money. One bad thing is that there is a certain amount of waiting time, for me I waited for 30 minutes. But I can see that they are making effort to streamline the process and telling you upfront that there is a waiting time so you can decide whether to wait or not.

    After my lunch, I met with the gang and as usual there would be someone who is late. But it all right. We took the train down to orchard cineleisure to catch the movie “deja vu”. Well this movie is about…..(not going to say, go catch movie. Its quite nice.) Then after the movie, we went to the Hereens to walk around, may just HMV.

    We late walked down to The MINDS Cafe to play board games. Played Who’s the Boss and other games that I don’t really remember the names. Played for like 3 hours. Then after that I gave them a short tour of my school campus, showing them all the common areas. Then we just walked down to Raffles Place to have a meal at The Soup Spoon. Quite nice soup they have there. But can be better. Maybe more spice.

    After this we headed to the train station, and back home we went.

  • SMUBE: Campus TV

    Well like I said in the previous post, I was at the CTV camp on monday. Actually this camp started on the sunday.

    On sunday, we started with some intro to what CTV is about and what videos they have done. We then proceed with ice breakers to get to know each other more. Followed by lessons on storyboarding and camera work.

    We were then divided up into groups and given a task to produce a video around then theme “Lift”. My group decided that we should make a video about a ghost in the lift. Will post the link to the video when I get it. After we had complete the video, we were given comments about how to better improve the video, and most of it was very helpful feedback.

    I felt that the video was quite well done considering that we had only two plus hours to complete it.

    After the review session, we went to have supper. Learnt more about some of the supper locations near to the school.

    We then went back to school, and spend the night in the Campus Radio room.

    In the morning, we played a game called sherades (at least I think this is the spelling).

    We then proceeded to brain storming for the SMU video contest, Sho*ping & Mu*ging. And also for the next season of Campus TV. We actually intended to have 3 teams for the video contest, but decided that it was best to chose 1 idea and work on it and focus on the next season for Campus TV. And I took the job of doing up the video for the contest. Well hope I can make something out of it.

    At the end of the day, we played a drawing form of taboo. And it was quite fun and we had a great time. We after the game helped to pack things up as Campus TV would be moving into the Radio Room. As OSL have decided to use the current room for something else.

    Well lets hope that I can do a good job with the video and win something.